So, how’s it going? Hope it’s alright. I’m doing alright. Let us be "alright" for the rest of our lives. First log, here it is. I don't know how this so called blog thing works. Well, not that I care or anything. I was just gonna talk about the shit I’ve been through anyway.
So... the world isn't doing alright nowadays, and neither am I, actually. I lied to you, okay? I’m not doing alright. I’ve never been alright. I was okay with it, though. I’m in so much debt right now; every day another bank calls for that shit. Haven’t paid them for months, lol. I’m like fucking Escobar—probably have my photo in front of a bank for fuck's sake. YEAAA, so... no money, no future. I dropped out of college like two years ago, couldn't deal with that shit. Used to have a decent major, too: Computer Science. Took me too long to realize I wasn't into that shit.
Like I said, no money, no future, and I wasn’t giving a fuck about it. Not long ago, it was my birthday. 23 fucking years old. Might not look like much, but I came to my parents' house to ease my mind and shit. Well, it looks like everyone has already planned their future, got their jobs, and all that. Oh fuck, some of them are even talking about marriage. I’m talking about my old friends and family members around my age, by the way.
Well, seeing them like that made me feel like I’m falling behind. Normally, I don’t give a shit, but this feeling of being left behind started to weigh on me. My college friends are graduating this year and starting their lives. And I’ll still be here, just trying to survive the day... Well, told you I wasn't alright, lol.
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So, do I have zero plans for the future? Actually, I do. I’ve got some crazy plans, man. I started developing my own game about 2-3 months ago. I used to be in the game dev club in college, participated in game jams and shit. But I was always on the art side. This time, I’m leading the project doing the game design, the writing and shits. But... that’s not going great either, unfortunately. First, the government fucked me over regarding the company setup. I won’t get into details, but they’re basically extorting the citizens.
Anyway, then I found an investor for the marketing budget and stuff, but that went to shit, too. The government decided to pass some bullshit law about it, so the investor bailed. Fucking great, man. Just let me do absolutely nothing, right? No problem, that’s "alright" too. We’ll make the game and handle the marketing somehow. I have a close friend who works as a marketing guy at a game company. He can handle our shit.
But we can't even develop the game! I left the coding part to a friend. We were gonna develop it together. It’s been three fucking weeks since I sent him the GDD, and I’m still waiting for him to read it and get back to me. Isn’t that great? The guy has a different problem every week. Man, for fuck's sake, I’m not doing this for charity. I just want to make my money and move on. Life is like absolute shit, friends. Truly like shit.